Year of the Boar, Tenth Month, Day 28.

Damn the gods. Damn them to all Seven of their Hells and back again. As if the possibility of my network falling apart were not problematic enough, I now have a black eye and an extremely bruised jaw to contend with since Yuuta decided to try and exact some revenge for the injury I casused him. I am relieved to report that I escaped unscathed save for the bruises and the fright, and Yuuta now resides in a cell but I will not deny that the incident did frighten me and it took me some while to right myself today.
I woke in the small hours to an unknown presence in my bed; a weight pressing me down into the mattress. My mind was slow with the dullness of sleep and I did not know if I were dreaming until Yuuta spoke. I will not defile my pages with his filth but it amounted to the fact that he was unimpressed by my outspokenness in relation to his advances and even less impressed with the injury I had done his person.
Such was my shock, I could not move or even make my throat work so I could scream. I lay rigid as he hissed poison into my ears and his hand wrenched at the fabric of my nightclothes between my thighs. It was not until his fingers made contact with bare flesh that I came to my senses and woke enough to struggle.
Naturally I sleep with a knife nearby and I do not know not how I did it but I was able to arch away from Yuuta just enough to wrap my hand around it and thrust it into his side. It was enough to gain some leverage and scramble away from him towards the door but in the dark, I could not see well enough and tripped giving Yuuta time to grab my hair and slam my face into the floor in an attempt to stop me from escaping. By then, my screams had alerted the guards and I was saved from a far worse fate.
I was terribly frightened and trembled for several sticks but the fear has left me now and its place there is a white hot anger. I am furious with myself for not realising the danger in which I had put myself and I am angry for not dealing with Yuuta more appropriately the first time he attempted to assault me. I am angry for never having anticipated that other Rulers would also run spies and even angrier that I ever came to Dying Crane in the first place.
I will see out Rani's visit and then I am leaving. I do not intend to tell Yuika that my departure will be permanent; I could not deal with the arguments. Rather, I will tell her I need a holiday and once I have arrived at Purple Lightning, I will send word that I am not coming back. The actions of a coward do not sit well with me but I cannot put myself through any more of this nonsense.