Year of the Boar, Thirteenth Month, Day 4.

 I feel a little better today so I have been able to sit on the veranda and enjoy some fresh air. The novel Haru was reading to me did not improve and so she agreed to fetch some of the records from the library. She has not returned yet and I do not know what I expect to find when she does. All I have to help me is Father's assertion that the answers I seek are at Purple Lightning. I have had a lot of time to think in the days of my... illness... and I realised that until he told me that, I did not even know there were answers to seek.

How can I find answers when I do not even know the question...? Unless I can solve Father's riddle, I will not find anything anywhere, let alone at Purple Lightning. 

Was Father speaking in code? Does the phrase "answers I seek" have some significance? Did he think I had already discovered some sort of truth and merely sought confirmation? I have no idea... For all I know, he could have been delirious although I do not believe that. I believe he knew exactly what he was saying but why not just tell me what he wanted me to know? Unless... unless sending me to Purple Lightning was his way of making me leave the House because he was afraid for me...

But why would Father be afraid for me, why? I suppose there I have my first significant question. Could Father really have thought that Mother would harm me?